Survivors' Poetry

I'm Waiting

They say with time it gets better
33 years and I'm still waiting
I fight, I cry, I scream
I'm waiting

I wake up afraid to open my eyes
Afraid to start my day
Afraid who or what will trigger it
Afraid every minute
I'm waiting

I'm afraid to walk out the door
Afraid of who is out there
Afraid of what will happen
Afraid that I can't escape
I'm waiting

I'm afraid to close my eyes
Afraid of what I will see, hear
Afraid of what I will dream
Afraid of screaming
Afraid I won't wake up in time
I'm waiting

I'm afraid to start a new day
I'm waiting

Z.T.

A Battle

Each day is a battle
A battle to forget
A battle to forgive
A battle to fight the nightmares
A battle to fight the invisible ghost
A battle to fight to survive
A battle to be happy
A battle to be normal
The battle never ends, it’s a constant war within my head

Z.T.